Dull Update

[lemonbella]

So I haven't updated for a while.



So, things at work have been tough for a little while now, for lots of different reasons. It was always going to be a tough job, but it's proving more than just challenging. I'm finding it hard to cope. I don't know what it is: whether I'm not up to it, whether I don't get enough support, whether others' incompetence and downright mal-intent are at fault, whether I'm being too hard on myself and expecting too much, whether being motivated by making a difference is hopelessly naive and therefore never going to be satisfied, whether this is a blip, whether there's something physically wrong that's just lowered my resilience. But whatever way it sucks and I'm finding myself having to question alot of the things that are quite fundemental to my motivation and function and, well, *me*.



I need to get back to assigning random scores to cricketers. It's what I'm best at

Comments

[lemonbella.livejournal.com]

Unfortunately, that's part of the problem!

Hope your new job goes well

[searingidolatry.livejournal.com]

Damn, in the meantime then all you can realistically do is try your hardest and keep your head down. Hope the situation improves soon.

Thanks, hopefully I won't be making a similar post to yours in the near future.